Let it go

Sometimes it will be easier to just let it all go.

To let them do whatever they want to do.

Allow them to take your hard work

grant them the opportunity to step over you

Sometimes it will be better to just to all that

But then you sit down and think

about the years you spent

about the time you slogged

about the sweat and blood you dripped

about the sacrifices your family and friends made for you

you think it is only easy to say let it all go

never easy to do, never sits right on your conscience

because it is your work it is what you did

and why should let anyone else meddle with your shit

when its yours and those who worked hard on it

and you fight, you cry, you shed a million tears

and then you get tired

and finally decide you have had enough

you have had enough

you had done enough

and it is time to let go 

and time to leave

Words that aren't coming out

Quanter of a year
That's how long since I've been gone
away from this place
in between many a times
I stopped by
looked at the white sheet
stared hard and yet
words just didn't come out
up to now it still doesn't come out
words.. seems like i've forgotten how to emote
like i've locked my feelings
bottled them up tightly
that even words don't come out anymore

and still it hurts, especially here in the heart
with too much to hold
and too little to be shared
and too exhausting
too far gone....

Not this again

Oh god, there it comes again

Seems like I am doomed with these issues

Seriously, can't you guys work it out amongst yourselves?

I don't wanna get invloved

I am tired of this problem

I am tired of being the middleman

I am tired of being the puppet

Frankly, I don't care if I am not first author and shit

But I don't want to be in-between

I've had enough for the first

I and him may done the shit

you may have tutored us

and you may have supervised us

but you didn't do no shit

and if I have to sit down and write it by myself

and frankly I think you guys don't deserve first not last

maybe i'll be first

and he'll be last

and you guys can stick it in the middle

Hohoho and how i wish i can say all this in front your faces!!!!

possessive arms

where have you been?
why are you coming back at this time?
who did you go out with?

I haven't even taken off my shoes
and I don't need this now
I don't need this ever

Rolling my eyes, I just head to my favorite place
the one place, my one sanctuary
Filling up the bathtub, I stare at my reflection

I can hear your footsteps
I can hear you, like a pacing tiger
I wonder the extent of your possesiveness

Sliding into the hot scalding water
Closing my eyes, I slid deeper, submerged
until I couldn't breathe anymore

the hot water relaxing my stiff shoulder
send me into drowsy, sleepy state
forgetting about everything, including time

When I opened my eyes next
I was in my bed, wrapped up in the fluffiest robe
with a warm blanket, and a warm (possessive) arm around me

i'm sorry, whispered into my hair
i just.... i don't know.. choked out
i'm just sorry, i know how much you hate me doing that

Pulling me closer into an embrace
I could hear the unsteady heartbeat
I linked my fingers with the possessive ones on my tummy

Thank you, another whisper
and then it was silence, and I drifted off to sleep
with the last words of the night being, i love you