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All I see is DARKNESS.
All I feel is COLD.
All I hear is CRITICISM
All I want is PEACE
and a SMILE on your FACE

Friday, December 23, 2011

Self-reflection

It's very depressing that in all the "dramas" that have happened in my life, I am always considered as the bad one, the one triggering all the bloody drama.
People always say if one person says that, then it could be a misunderstanding, but if many people says the same thing, perhaps its time to reflect on oneself.
Maybe its time I reflect on myself, to see gravely whether it IS me that is wrong in all the situation.
Mostly it's because I can't control my emotions, my face reflects whatever i feel, I may not talk, may not say, but my face shows, shows how much i dislike whatever is happening.
That's because i don have a poker face, i don know how to pretend, how to lick others' ass, cock and shoes and whatever else they want me to lick, i don know how to not be angry when someone else is in the wrong and yet others get blamed, i don know how to close my eyes to all the injustice in the world (for example, getting recognition that you don deserve, and not doing anything to rectify it or even point to those who actually contributed), i don understand how people can be so two-faced, talking nicely in front of others and talking badly behind their backs, and yes, i can't do that, if i don't like you, i don't like you, and my face will show you that, if i don respect you, my face will show you exactly that!
Maybe its time i do reflect, and not be all that, or maybe i could just continue be me, let everyone else fuck off!!!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Fight

But it was never intention
nor was it pre-mediated
I liked you and you liked me
So what's the big deal
You wanna pick a fight
Pick your weapon and I'll not shy
I'll stand by me
and I'll stand all alone
even if the world was against me
and standing by yourside
I'll not cower and fly
cause I know this time
I'm right and you're a poor sight
so I'll shall not cry
or wail
or be sorry for my plight
Come, be strong and face me
I'll be waiting