at last i have fallen too
~bitter laugh~
into this mundane lifeless life of mine
i don't know what has gotten into me
but its been two months and i can't shift away from this feeling/behaviour/attitude
its bringing me down, very much down
its tearing me into pieces
i don find the joy anymore
i feel like a walking corpse
i force out laughters/smiles because i know people are worries
but truthfully i don even feel like laughing
all i feel i want to do is isolate myself and disappear from this world
lock myself up and cut myself up
and the worst is i have no idea why i am feeling this way
~bsides the fact i am a useless daughter, uncaring sister, unfeeling friend~
i really can't pinpoint this despair i feel
and i don't know how to crawl out of this dark pit i've fallen into
