Angry

I am so tired.. really so tired
I am mentally exhausted, physically exhausted..
I can't do this anymore..
You have no right to do this to me
No right at all
I have done all work, everything i should do
everything little thing, down to the most menial matter
yet in the end you fucking do this to me
FUCK you.. really fuck you
You have no rights to toy me around
to blackmail me, to play around like this
to hold my life in your fucking hands
FUCK you and your shit
FUCK you and your bloody moodswings
FUCK you again again and again
FUCK you until you die
You can't go around changing your mind every 2 seconds
You can't play with peoples' hard work
You can't play with my work.
I've been a good, I've listened to you
But you don't get to toy me around
You wanna play rough, I'll give you rough
you FUCKer!!!

Words that aren't coming out

Quanter of a year
That's how long since I've been gone
away from this place
in between many a times
I stopped by
looked at the white sheet
stared hard and yet
words just didn't come out
up to now it still doesn't come out
words.. seems like i've forgotten how to emote
like i've locked my feelings
bottled them up tightly
that even words don't come out anymore

and still it hurts, especially here in the heart
with too much to hold
and too little to be shared
and too exhausting
too far gone....