Sometimes

Sometimes I hate myself
Sometimes I wish I was someone else
Sometimes I wanna hide away and never show my face
Sometimes I feel hated and scorned upon
Sometimes I just hate the world
Sometimes I wanna lie on my bed and never wake up
Sometimes I disappoint myself and the world
Sometimes I don't know who I am anymore
Sometimes I am so lost
Sometimes I can't breathe, I suffocate
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
Sometimes I hit myself
Sometimes I mess up everything
Sometimes I don't want to talk to anyone
Sometimes I feel hurt and hurt and hurt

but most of the times, when sometime occurs, I fake a smile and pretend the world's still the perfect place.

Clingy

When I hold you down
When I hold you tight
When I hold you hard
It simply means I need you now
I am not affectionate
I am not clingy
So when I hold you real tight
It really means I want you now
So stay by me
lend me your shoulder
give me hugs
shower me kisses
or simply hold my hands
it would mean the world to me

Frustrated

I want to be out there having fun too.
Yet I don't want to go alone, not safe to go alone
The worse is when you have someone with you
and yet the person is unwilling/ reluctant to go
you'd ask once or twice
but you'll get rejected everytime
or you'd have to beg or force
and i really hate doing that
Its not like I want to do drugs or anything
I just wanna go out, have fun, and celebrate
and you get tired of asking again and again
I feel trapped in the four walls
I want to feel young and willful and adventurous
but not to the point that I wanna go out by myself
and risk myself
so of course i would bring a friend
but to get turned down again and again
has made me not ask anymore
and all i can do is sit here and rant
and feel like a trapped bird