100th Post

This is my 100th posting here.
I can't even believe I actually could reach that number, or maybe I should be ashamed that I've only 100 posts for these years. Nevertheless, ometodou!!!

Do you wanna know how I got this "Blackwinter" name?
No, I don't have winter in my country.
The name came about about 13years ago ~wow, that's like ages ago~, when I was a young immature ~not that I've changed much though~, sensitive ~still am~, foolish ~hopefully i've become a little wiser, though I doubt it~, irritable ~occasionally i am still very much irritable~ girl who lacked self confidence, was very depressed, almost suicidal, who took everything in world personally and was angry at the world and everyone for reasons which I won't delve into. You know how ICQ was very famous then at that time, no FB, twitter, tumblr, it was ICQ, and chatrooms that was dominating the world. I could never find a suitable online ID, one day i was stonecold, the next, blackblack, then coldwinter, until one day one of my ICQ buddy said stop changing my name, he couldn't find me in his list, and suddenly I was blackwinter. The name has stuck with me for these many years, followed me through changes, through friendster, friendster blog, through almost everything i do online. I used imagine myself as harsh as a black winter day where the days were cold, dark, and harsh, and people hated this time, just like how they hated me at that time. These days though, I've learned that I couldn't be bothered to give a fuck to those who hate me, I can't please everyone, and I should never ever take things too personally. I've chilled slightly, relaxed a bit, learned that life's only hard when u make it hard, that winters can be beautiful even if its dark, ad many people don't like it. Because somewhere in the world, there's someone who loves the winter, snow, and all.

So people, if you are reading tonight/today, whatever the time it is out there. Please know that there some one out there in this small world that cares for you, loves you and wants you to always have a smile on your face. And when you feel like you don't have anyone for you, drop by, send me nudge, then let me tell you that I love you, stranger...