Mother's Day

My dear Mother,

Today's Mother's Day,and yet once again I don't have anything to give this lady, my mum.

Chandra Davee is her name. The name of the woman who brought me and my sisters up. The amount of sacrifice she has given for the sake of her family, for us, only we know, only God knows. We have been naughty, lazy, rebellious, inattentive, uncaring, sometimes so rude, it would have torn her heart into a million pieces each time we said or did somethings. Yet, this lady stood by us, and is still standing by us, no matter how good or how bad we have been. Only a lady like her, can endure everything life has set for her, the pain, the hurt, and the good and happy times.

From my memories, (i have a short term memory) I remember her coming to school every afternoon to feed me (because I was a vegetarian, and there was no food available in the canteen), she would check my homework, help me out with my homework, teach me this and that, she would meet my school teachers regularly for an update on my progress (although at that time I hated that), she would check my schoolbag/drawer for rubbish (as usual, I will always kena hemtam), she would carry thameesha in one hand, mayuri's bag in another, tagging me along to catch the bus from sentul to chow kit, form chow kit to klang bus stand, from klang bus stand to brickfields, so that we can go for dance classes. When we finally got a van, at the age of 39, she went and took up driving lessons, so she will be able to drive us to school,classes etc. Until now, she does all of the housework, she makes sure there is food for us, she takes care of her husband, as well as her kids. She pays bills, drives around for endless chores, she .......

She cries very often now, worried about many things, too many things that make her sad.

I feel like a useless daughter to you, amma. I cannot even make you happy for a day. I am unable to bring peace nor happiness to you. I am really sorry I cannot do anything for you now.

But you must know, one day, when I am successful, when my time has come, I will never forget what you have done for us. I will try to repay as much as I can, although no matter how much I pay, it will never be enough to repay all the love and sacrifice you have given us.

Amma, I am sorry for all the wrongs I have done and am still doing. I love you, no we love you. I can give assurance, that we all love you and appa so much that even if next life we were born, I will still want to be your daughter. You are the bestest mother in the world. Happy Mother's Day!!! :)