ANGST

You hold my hand
you intertwine your fingers with mine
you squeeze them lightly
and then with more pressure

but i don 't reciprocate
i don't know how to
maybe i just i don't want to
or its just that i can't do it

i stare ahead
stare at the nothingness
blanking my mind
blocking your voice

and you halt suddenly
perhaps you have become aware
of the lack of response
of the lack of anything

you sigh
but you don't anything no more
the silence is deafening
the awkwardness seeps in

i let go
or i try to let your hands go
its futile
with the grip you have now

you pull me to you
i crash against you
your arm go around me
crushing me with a bear hug

you still don't say anything
but i feel wetness on my hair
now have i made you cry
now that's why i need to go

i want to say something
i want to say anything
anything to stop your tears
without realizing your shirt is also getting wet

Frustrated me

Frustrated (PMSing) me

Baby, look at me
open your eyes please..
Come one, open your eyes
Oi!!! Are you gonna look at me now??

Refusing outright
All I did was to burrow deeper
Deeper in to safety haven, under the pillows
Waiting till you get tired and leave

Being stubborn ain't gonna send me away
Can't we talk about it? Just talk..
Don't be unreasonable...
At least look at me

I don't want to listen 
Not in this state.. Not when I am angry
Not when I might snap.. Not when I may hurt you
again...

Listen, I'm sorry
Will you forgive me?
I'll do anything to make it up to you
Please, baby, don't be mad

I snap, throwing the covers away
Why the fuck are you apologizing for?
You didn't do anything wrong.
Why are you saying sorry

What? Why are you like this?
You don't talk to me, you don't let me say anything
You don't let me in, I don't understand wha..
No baby, don't cry, don't cry..

I was pulled into a hug
angry frustrated tears rolling down
Don't say sorry, don't, just don't..
I hate you... I hate myself even more

Hush hush baby... cry them all out
Cry what ever's bothering you out
I'm sorry i forced you to talk,
Don't say anything but let me be here with you

Sobbing uncontrollably
i'm sorry i'm sorry..sorry.. 
there i stayed in your arms
until there were no more tears