The park

another misunderstanding
another fight
another tantrum thrown
another silent war

you speed up
leaving me in the back
trying to escape 
trying to run away

that's what you are 
a coward
you run away
you don't face your problems

my head hurts
my heart hurts even more
i call out to you
and you never turn around once

i stopped walking
wondering why i bother chasing
rooted to my spot
thinking whether following would ever be worth it

the park is quiet
as it is always at this time of the day
i look up and ahead
i see your back walking further

its so pretty
the place is so serene
and our memories here were wonderful
now you walk away, marring them

soon everything's blur
when i wipe my cheeks, they are wet
when did i start crying
and with that i turn to walk the opposite way

no more chasing
no more following
no more hurting 
no more you and i

and the mere thought
and me down on my knees
wrecking, heaving
sobbing my heart and soul out

as I storm away

angry for reasons I'm not even sure anymore

I hear you calling out

my name again and again

but anger blinds

I ignore you, 

quickening my pace

trying to go faster

I don't want to talk to you

not in this state

not when I am not in my right mind

anger blinds, and words can hurt

I walked and walked

not taking in my surrounding

the beauty lost 

and your voice fading, and it stopped

as I got closer to my car

I realized, 

this was not what we came for

we did not come to fight

We came to celebrate

and I had to create a scene

not on this day

when we celebrate our day

I feel ashamed, embarassed

for causing this misunderstanding

I turn around to apologize

and you were nowhere found

Panicked, 

did you finally decide that you've had enough

enough of me

enough of us

I ran

my heart pondered

no, I will not allow this

if we ever do separate, it'll not be like this

No no no

panting and struggling

I stopped in shock

you were there on the ground

you were crying

you were sobbing

and I am the cause for your tears

which I've sworn to never let happen

I felt like dying

as I took the final steps towards

and you did not even realize my presence

that's how much I must have hurt

you startled when I wrapped my arms around

but you knew it was me

and that had only made you cry harder

and all I could do was to whisper sorry over and over again