Words that aren't coming out

Quanter of a year
That's how long since I've been gone
away from this place
in between many a times
I stopped by
looked at the white sheet
stared hard and yet
words just didn't come out
up to now it still doesn't come out
words.. seems like i've forgotten how to emote
like i've locked my feelings
bottled them up tightly
that even words don't come out anymore

and still it hurts, especially here in the heart
with too much to hold
and too little to be shared
and too exhausting
too far gone....

Tired

I am so tired

So so tired

I'm insomniac

I can't sleep

Or it's more like

i can't sleep well at all

the moment I sleep

i'm brought to dreamland

where everything is just as bleak

and dark as reality

or maybe even darker than here

so i try not to sleep

i am sleep deprived

body needs its sleep

my mind needs it even more

but the Dreams keep coming back

for more and more

I wanna sleep

i really really do