Frustrated me

Frustrated (PMSing) me

Baby, look at me
open your eyes please..
Come one, open your eyes
Oi!!! Are you gonna look at me now??

Refusing outright
All I did was to burrow deeper
Deeper in to safety haven, under the pillows
Waiting till you get tired and leave

Being stubborn ain't gonna send me away
Can't we talk about it? Just talk..
Don't be unreasonable...
At least look at me

I don't want to listen 
Not in this state.. Not when I am angry
Not when I might snap.. Not when I may hurt you
again...

Listen, I'm sorry
Will you forgive me?
I'll do anything to make it up to you
Please, baby, don't be mad

I snap, throwing the covers away
Why the fuck are you apologizing for?
You didn't do anything wrong.
Why are you saying sorry

What? Why are you like this?
You don't talk to me, you don't let me say anything
You don't let me in, I don't understand wha..
No baby, don't cry, don't cry..

I was pulled into a hug
angry frustrated tears rolling down
Don't say sorry, don't, just don't..
I hate you... I hate myself even more

Hush hush baby... cry them all out
Cry what ever's bothering you out
I'm sorry i forced you to talk,
Don't say anything but let me be here with you

Sobbing uncontrollably
i'm sorry i'm sorry..sorry.. 
there i stayed in your arms
until there were no more tears

Dawn

Approaching dawn

in the haze of sleep
felt your fingers in my navel
they circle the sensitive bellybutton
i can't help but shiver
the tremors you no doubt felt
made you braver
a kiss to my nape
a lick at my earlobes
i smiled, and shut my eyes tigher
refusing to wake
hands now my hips
never ceasing their movement
i couldn't help but
feel so comfortable
and soon i am back to sleep

Sleep..

Your beautiful face 

deep in sleep as you are

your arms wraps me close

your breath tickles the nape of neck

your heat warms me up

i wiggle and jiggle slowly

trying to glimpse at you

fingers tracing the contour of your face

lingering on those lips

you whine a little

moving your face away

away from my inquisitive fingers

but never letting me go

i keep watching you sleep

pondering how did i end up here

in your arms and your mercy

until i fell asleep snuggled into your chest 

Send me a sign, baby!

Are you happy there?
Wherever you are?
Whatever you are doing?
Because that's all I want to know
Because that's all I need to know
Because it's been years
And I have to let you go
And let someone new in
Although you'd probably always remain
somewhere deep, in a tiny corner
my steadily beating heart
So, if you ever see this,
Do send me a sign, 
A sign of your happiness
So my heart can rest in peace

To a friend (who'll never read this)

Someone once told me I am the type who'd do anything for the one I love.
This was said after observing me for so many years.
I don't know how much you had observed in those years.
Did you see through me? Did you see what had happened?
Did you understand, it was not because I didn't trust you enough to let you in?
And it was just because I wanted to keep my loved one safe?
From whom? you'd ask me. And truthfully I don't know.
Perhaps if I'd talked to you, especially when it all ended,
I'd have dealt with everything better, but I never realized,
I really never realized, that you saw through me,
and only when you told me I'm the type who'd anything for my loved one
I knew in my heart, that you probably have always known
So, I want to thank you for putting up with me those years
and sorry if I couldn't be a better friend..