Let it go

Sometimes it will be easier to just let it all go.

To let them do whatever they want to do.

Allow them to take your hard work

grant them the opportunity to step over you

Sometimes it will be better to just to all that

But then you sit down and think

about the years you spent

about the time you slogged

about the sweat and blood you dripped

about the sacrifices your family and friends made for you

you think it is only easy to say let it all go

never easy to do, never sits right on your conscience

because it is your work it is what you did

and why should let anyone else meddle with your shit

when its yours and those who worked hard on it

and you fight, you cry, you shed a million tears

and then you get tired

and finally decide you have had enough

you have had enough

you had done enough

and it is time to let go 

and time to leave

Work work work

Where did I go?
Went MIA for awhile didn't I?
Anyway it doesn't matter, does it?
Its not like someone reads this shit anyway...

Too much work is killing my creativity ~if i had some~
Too much work is stifling my imagination ~ if I had a little~
Too much work is bringing my morale down ~ this i had a lot~
Too much work is just too much work

Work is neverending
I have to know when to do what needs to be done
But sometimes I get ungodly deadlines,
that I know I will never be able to stick up to

So why do i subject myself to this
overworking and overkilling my brains
So why do i still work and work
and write and write and write

well, obligations and responsibility calls
i need to answer that call
i need to finish this so I can answer that call'
i need to graduate next year!!!

Envy?

sometimes i bloody hate why the hell I am still here

but just sometimes

when everyone seems to be somewhere

having a family

having a stable job

having fun studying in place I wanna be

having lots of fun in life

with many hobbies

and I am all stuck here.

Not that i don't like what I am doing

I take everything I do with the same fervor I take in life

serious and yet i try my best to make as fun as possible

perhaps I am just envious of people

Looking at others, seeing their achievements, and their enjoyment

makes me feel like I haven't been doing the best in my life

Envy: one of the greatest sin

Envy brings unhappiness right?

I shouldn't be envious of others and of what they have

because I have done enough ~trying my best to console myself that I've tried my best~

because I have a family, a roof over my head and food on my table

I am thankful, and for that i am glad

yet sometimes, i feel so envious of others

just because I feel I deserve better ~i am a SNOB for saying this, right?~

because I feel i haven't given my best ~i am trying though..~

I hate the me today

I wonder what did I do to myself and my dreams

why I am here?

~Fret not~ consoling myself ~one day, your day will come when you can soar high and achieve whatever you want to achieve, just hold on, keep holding on~