dancing all by yourself

your whole life, you have danced alone.
on this stage all by yourself.
you are so comfortable in your space.
the music is all yours.
the beat controls your movement.
you dont follow no one
coz the rhythm comes to you.
you do as you wish
you sway as you want.
you are not perfect
but the stage is all yours.
you are drowning in it
but only in joy you drown you dance you move.
unknowingly capturing the eyes of many.
you are not used to that
because in real life no one pays you any attention.
but they do on this stage
some with malicious intentions
some with wonder
some just wanna join you in having fun

but you
you have danced all by yourself all your life
you do not know how to sync with another
you do not understand how some songs are meant for two
you do not feel comfortable when someone steps in your bubble
so you apologize
or you fight

its okay darling
just go on being you
just keep on dancing alone
one day you will find someone who learns what moves you
then may you find your dance partner

foolishness of the heart
i should have let you go
or i should have walked away
lest we feel the way we do right now
my heart is full doubt
not about you never about you
its i i doubt, its i
i never did love myself
you are so generous with love
i think it may all be gone
sooner or later you will find out
the real me the monster i am
i will tear you down
i will wear you down
i am capable of all that and more
except for loving me myself like i should
my love my sweetheart my one
i do not want you to see me thus
unfortunately you sneaked in
and you are caught in my web
i just want you happy
i just want me happy
so if you are any smarter
leave while you can
before i turn you into me
oh, my dear sweet one
oh the foolishness of our heart

Okay

Its okay to cry, you know

Its okay to laugh

Its okay to snort

Its okay to fart

Its okay to burp

Its okay to be yourself

Its okay to love yourself

Its okay to love everyone else

But its not okay to hurt someone intentionally 

Its never okay to tear people up

Its not okay to insult or malicious tease others

So be a kind human

spread the love, stop the ill-will

may there one day be peace

Random

the mattress dipped and creaked
and you were back
in between awake and sleep
i felt a kiss to my forehead

The park

another misunderstanding
another fight
another tantrum thrown
another silent war

A sleepless night

woke up missing your warmth
in the dark, tried to get my eyes adjusted
wondering where did you slip off to
in the middle of night

I saw you sitting in front of the window
lost in thoughts, with a deep frown
untangling myself from the cocoon 
I sneaked towards you

You startled and tensed a moment
when I wrapped my arms around your waist
and then you leaned against my chest
murmuring apologies for having woken me up

I kissed your hair, I nibbled you earlobe
you squirmed and giggled
and tried too wriggle out of my grasp
but i just held on tighter

then you sighed, and exhaled a deep breathe
you became silent again
so unlike you, unlike you to be this restless
and i knew you would speak when you felt like it

so there we sat quietly
as you pulled me to the front
with your chin of my shoulders
and  your hands rubbing my tummy incessantly 

I must have fallen asleep in your embrace
because the next time I opened my eyes
sunlight was streaming in
and i was snuggled into your chest on our tiny little bed.