ugly truth or ...

an uncomfortable encounter
standing between 2 people and chopping bones
whilst they go on about working in an obesity clinic
and fat-shaming the people who went there for help
6 packets of biscuits
10 yards to bus stop as exercise
while i stand between them in close proximity
while i who for my whole life have never been anything other than fat
dear lord

treacherous

what is wrong with me? something must be wrong... since when did i loathe myself? how long how have i been harboring thia hatred towards myself? simce when did i become self-deprecating? what? how did i let my self hate get this bad? did it seep in? thought by thought ?

Get lost!!! this is not what i am like...
get lost!!!!