A dream or subconscious speaking?

I had a dream the other night
I received a letter from my first love


Dear _______,


Haven't you forgiven me yet?
Why do you still act "cold" towards me?
Don't you think it's time you forgave me?
You have to, ______, because if you don't,
you will never move on.....


Yours truly,
______________


Is my subconscious trying to tell me something??
I wonder.....

i have deluded myself far enough.

i just din want to see what was happening,

preferring to dumb at all others' suffering

and now it hits me so badly

this heart is so heavy

both literally and physically,

weighted down by those words

weighted down by MONEY

how could i have deluded myself this far?

how could i not understand the situation in detail?

and now what should i do?