BlackWinter's Cold Winter
Bleak (very often), lightning (Occasionally), Rain (Middle of the night)
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Sunday, January 26, 2020
Blah
Thursday, July 4, 2019
its when you are sick you realize how truly alone you are.
Friends treat it like a joke
Mom treats it like you are about to die
sometimes its good to not tell anyone
sometimes its just so painful you want to yell at everyone
but yeah, so what, you are sick. and life goes on.
Sunday, January 13, 2019
one stray thought
Just one niggling stray thought
bringing an onslaught self hatred and self destruction. why, even self pity.
Happy new year
Thursday, June 14, 2018
ugly truth or ...
an uncomfortable encounter
standing between 2 people and chopping bones
whilst they go on about working in an obesity clinic
and fat-shaming the people who went there for help
6 packets of biscuits
10 yards to bus stop as exercise
while i stand between them in close proximity
while i who for my whole life have never been anything other than fat
dear lord
Saturday, April 21, 2018
treacherous
what is wrong with me? something must be wrong... since when did i loathe myself? how long how have i been harboring thia hatred towards myself? simce when did i become self-deprecating? what? how did i let my self hate get this bad? did it seep in? thought by thought ?
Get lost!!! this is not what i am like...
get lost!!!!